The Good –
I’ve been killing my two main food goals! First, I’ve been focusing on eating healthy by including tons of veggies. I found out that taking them to school in my lunchbox really helps, probably because I either eat them or go hungry. Now that is motivation! Guess what? Turns out I actually like some veggies and am discovering new ones I like, or can at least tolerate, all the time. Win! I’ve also been eating way less sweets because I am putting veggies in my lunch box instead and by the time I get home I am so proud of how well I have done that I don’t want to binge.
I feel more motivated to make smart food decisions than I have in a long time and am discovering how much better my body feels when I do make healthy food choices. I can see how people train themselves to makes this all part of a healthy lifestyle, which is my end goal.
The Bad –
I was so excited to make this second round of marathon training even better than the first. I knew that if I wanted to improve I could no longer only run long, slow distances. I was going to tackle high intensity interval training, strength/resistance work, and hills. In short I was going to dominate my training, improve my body, bb in the best shape of my life, and PR that marathon.
The short of it is this- my hamstring just cannot handle speed or hills right now so even through all my best intentions I am stuck running only long slow distances; however, this time it is not by choice.
The Ugly –
I came to the realization a few weeks ago that this marathon will not work out the way I wanted it to. My runs have been slow and many times painful. I knew I was starting out behind where I wanted to be since I had to take three months off running and was just coming back. I knew the first couple weeks would be a wash because I had pulled my hamstring, but I was not prepared to still be in pain 9 weeks later. I knew I was running slow and not even close to where I was at this point in my last marathon training cycle, and I knew I was nowhere near where I wanted to be (see above), but the really ugly – I thought my hamstring was getting better… I thought I could run it all if I just did it slowly… I thought it would only be a little pain… I WAS WRONG
4 miles into my 16 mile long run this weekend I had to stop. I was beyond disappointed. I have known for the last few weeks that I wouldn’t be able to run this marathon like I wanted to; but in all honesty, this has my wondering if I will even be able to run the whole thing. The pain in my hamstring was as bad when I stopped (who am I kidding when I showed up) as it was right after the pull and was even beginning to bother my hip and groin. Son of a biscuit! I really felt like it was getting a bit better, not good by any means, but better.
Truth is I don’t know what to do any more. I took a lot of time off right after I pulled it and have been coming back slowly, listening to my body, and taking lots of extra rest days. On top of that I foam roll like a beast, stretch, ice, and Advil on a regular basis. I really am trying to ditch my stubborn self and be smart about this – I just am not really sure where this leaves me.
*However, I am trying to be positive – Maybe this marathon training cycle isn’t about me becoming a faster runner, maybe this one is meant to teach me how to be a smarter runner.* (FYI – That still sucks big, nasty, fat man boobs!)