I having been trying for years to get my eating under control.
I had severe binge/over-eating issues for years and years and sometimes it is hard to escape them.
For example: on a binge night, a dinner for me might have been an entire box of crackers, but then since I’d already “gone overboard” I’d keep going – all the cheese in the house, throw in a whole jar of peanut butter, and finish it off by making a batch of cookie dough and eating the whole bowl full. Makes 24 cookies my…
(And yes, I have had that exact binge before and eaten that much.
When I would binge I would take in HUGE amounts of food.)
All that happened post binge was that I’d end up feeling full, sad, and disappointed in myself.
Do I still have binges? Occasionally.
However, they are way less frequent and usually not quite as severe.
I continue to work on my binge eating issues, but I think it is important to admit that sometimes I still struggle. I am a work in progress and I know others maybe going through the same thing.
Right now I want to run across the street (I live right next to a 24 hour CVS) and buy ALL THE CANDY and just go nuts. I am dreaming of a huge bag of chips, a pint of ice cream, a tub of frosting, a king sized bag of peanut M&Ms, and a huge bag of Starburst jellybeans. The fact is I could buy all that and eat it in one sitting, that is what a binge can do to me.
However, I am restraining.
It is still really hard sometimes, like tonight when I cannot stop thinking about eating as much junk as possible. However, I hope that with hard work my progress continues and my big binges become less and less a part of my life.
I guess I just wanted to put that out there because even though it isn’t healthy or glamorous or exciting, I know I am not the only one working on issues and sometimes everyone online seems so perfect… this is me saying not everyone is perfect. We all fight our own unique battles. I am not perfect and that is okay. However, I am working to get healthier.
How do you break old habits?
What do you do when you can’t stop thinking about something? In this case food.