I have stopped posting about my Weight Watchers progress, because the truth is there wasn’t much to post. I weighed in the day before Thanksgiving at 155.6, only 0.6 pounds from my goal weight. I was really proud of myself. In 4 months (16 weeks) I had lost almost 14 pounds. I know that may not be tons for most, but for me that almost pound a week average was amazing.
Then the ish hit the fan.
It is now 4 months later and instead of meeting and maintaining my goal I have gained every single pound I lost back. I have now been a Weight Watchers member for 8 months total and my cumulative loss is zip, zero, nada!
It is really freaking frustrating to have gained 14 pounds back when I was so close to my goal. My clothes don’t fit right. There is way more jiggle around my middle when I run. Overall, it sucks. However, the truth is I have nobody to blame – except myself!
At first I was blaming it all on holiday weight, but if I am really honest with myself I only gained 3 pounds over the holidays, and if I would have buckled down I could have gotten that back off in less than a month. However, I went on a downward spiral where I had a couple really rough weeks in February, fell back into my old ways, ate my emotions, and added the weight back on quick.
Since then, I have been on such an up and down roller coaster over the past two months. I will have 2 or 3 great weeks, but I will only lose a bit of week. Then I will get frustrated at the slow loss (or no loss), have a bad week, and gain back everything I lost over the 2 or 3 good weeks.
This has to stop.
I am the only person who can fix this.
I am not happy when my work pants won’t button.
I feel ashamed when I am having a bad day and I turn to HUGE amounts of unhealthy food. I feel better for a second while I am eating, but then afterwards I feel so much worse. This isn’t good for my body.
I know this is a journey. It is about progress and not perfection, and the truth is I have learned so much. I can see a lot of improvement in the person I am now compared to who I used to be. Overall, I do make better choices than I used to, but I still need to clean up me act.
So there it is, the reason you haven’t heard about my Weight Watchers journey recently… I gained every single stinking pound back. However, I am not quitting. I am not giving up. I know losing these last few pounds will be healthier for me and make me a better, faster runner too, plus honestly – I need to stop eating crap! So here goes nothing, time to clean up my act!
Give it to me guys:
I need some tough loving.
Or just a kick in the you know what!